Okay.

Sometimes I just feel like a big, mean ole, awful, selfish bore.
Sometimes I am.
Sometimes I realize basically everything I do- all day, every day- is for me! For comfort and justification and instant gratification. It makes me feel heavy. And bothersome.

I'm going to do a little spring cleaning.
Start living for others.
It's about time.

• air out and patch relationships
• dig spiritual habits and goals out of storage
• scrub and polish for a clean, bright, shiney future
• mend and organize finances (money stresses me out like nothing else can and I'm not of any use to anyone when it's all I think about)
  
• love love love every day and every one in every possible way I can show it

"Three things in human life are important.
The first is to be kind.
The second is to be kind.
And the third is to be kind."
-Henry James

And, oh life is beautiful! I miss my warm, sunshiney, healing Hawaii home
but am so happy to be in my chilly, familiar, foresty Washington home.
I love my family so much!

I'm going to be better, kinder, wiser, and more appreciative.
I have so much to appreciate:

List of happies I collected over the last month or two

sherbet skies -knowing I can be better - funny quotes - waking up without an alarm clock - memories - friends: old and new - birds - slip n' slides - feeling intelligent - sunday mornings - -sultry acoustic - Hawaii sun, Hawaii breeze - delicious fragrances: natural and otherwise - self control - I am going to China next year - Iron and Wine - anticipated success - holding hands -sandwiches - France - philosophy - wind - adreneline - stir fry - toast - Tessa Brady - eskimo kisses - performing - sleeping in - serving - wonderful wonders in the mail that are so thoughtful I carry around the package all day -comradery - the future - watching someone else watch the person they love - granola - the future - friends, lovers, family - people in general - acai - sad, droopy, testicular cancer dog friends on the beach - making strangers smile - good grades - self-help books - yoga - spontanaiety - greek architecture - dreams - s'mores - organization - The Zoo - sing-alongs - napping with friends - pretty notebooks, pretty things - sweet, kind, thoughtful boys - lucky number 11 - witty british documentary series - new book smell - listening to Jessica Fenenbock sing and letting it make me cry - love - nutella - being a free bird - Shea Stott - smart people - bunnies. of all kinds.

Love. peace.
-Banana

ROADTRIP!

This weekend was one of the best I've ever had.

Friday three friends and I forsook the gas prices, bought some caffeinated mints, and hit the open road for a little adventure to the westernmost part of the state.

It was so fun.







Kenny and Melissa built a lovenest in the back seat.





Josh tried to drive but I kept taking pictures.









We were so excited. We accidentally thought we were on our way to Disneyland.

Aaand finally we made it to Seattle. Where we discovered our long-lost brother, Jordan. He's leaving for Brazil for two years. For some odd reason. So we had to go stay with him.

...And Melissa worked her magic on him. Too.

























Oh. And me. Actually, I think everyone fell in
love with her at one point on the trip.





And SEATTLE was SO awesome!




















We made friends with people on the street and I got to see my childhood sweetheart, Carly.

(Even though we could only seem to take ugly awkward pictures...)

And the ride home was full of much joy. And snuggling of course.






















Did I mention I enjoyed myself immensely?

Love, rye chips, and hobos,
Anna